Zuckerfrei

So this is it.

I've learnt a $300 lesson (I'm not exaggerating - just including the taxi fare). Jez and I have decided to ...

Gosh, how do I even start.

I think I've known for awhile now, that our temporary fixes were just that. We admitted that we both want this relationship to work, but it's really time to pause and think about how, and if, it will.

The ring.

I don't think there can be any way to describe how hard I searched for it. You know the way you never find anything if you're actively look for it, but once you stop, it somehow finds you? I'm banking on this.

One day I hope it'll come back to me. Not to save our relationship, because our relationship isn't about the ring. I want it back because it's mine. Because it came with so much love.

Right now, it hurts so much.

I don't want to think about the past. I don't want to dwell on the mistakes or the arguments or think about what we should have or could have done.

Right now, I need to face this alone. Jez and I had something special. Something that could have grown. But relationships can't grow if the people in it don't. I have a lot to learn, a lot about myself I can improve. It's going to take time.

I know we'll both be fine. We've already grown through this relationship.

Jez has removed "iwalad" from his name.

The first step to moving on, maybe.